so Criela no matter how far

hayyyy!!!!!! great day,,, gumising ako ng 2am para mag aral ng java... thats what i planned... but first... pumunta muna ako sa ym... looked at criela.. kasi obvoiusly tulog naman sya... checked out her xanga rin para masigurado... off line nga sya... tapos pumunta me sa friendster ... nya..at multiply... nya... at sa blogspot at sa myspace.. at sa photobucket ko... to upload some photos... her photos... lol... kaya un i started studying at around 3 cguro... nung nagising father ko... and un nagaral me... first powerpoint presentation... exceptions.. 17 slides... then un input and output streams... 71 slides... what????!!!!! hay tinamad na ako... kaya un good morning muna uli ako kay criela.... tingin dito tingin dyan sa xanga nya.... kaya un sa exam kanina.. hayyy!!! ang hirap... lalo na pala kapag nag aral ka kaso bitin... umiral na naman un kalokohan ko na sana hindi na lang me nag aral kasi bagsak din naman me... at least kung hindi me nag aral ok lang sana... kaso nag pakapuyat ako para sa wala... hayyy!!!! ok lang... at least nag try nga di ba? kaya nga kanina hindi me agad nag pasa ng papel... pinilit ko talaga and siguro i got 40% chance of passing kasi kung hindi me nagtry i got 0% of passing...

hay.... un pala... bukas pala pupunta ako sa Kilos Foundation sa brgy. ugong pasig city... and guess what... mag cocomute lang me galing sa bahay... and kung alam mo mag commute alam mo na siguro na dadaan ako ng RIS... yehey... Reedley International School sa oras na sa tingin ko ay may 70% chance na nandun si criela... kasi dati pag napapadaan me dun laging weekend... well i have no intentions of passing by there and looking for criela pero natutuwa lang ako na dadaan me dun and nandun din si criela... sana... well alam mo dati pa, bago ko pa nakilala sa criela sa friendster... nakita ko na yang RIS by incident kasi napadaan din me dyan dati..kasi nga nag messenger me dati... hayyy memories... masayang mahirap.... weekday un, galing yata me somewhere in pasig bayan...papunta me sa crossing yata... napatingin lang me sa taas nun and nakita ko nga un lugar na un... at first hindi ko talaga alam na skul un... well, mukha syang skul pero mukhang parang sa mga special people kasi parang ang daming sasakyan at tsaka kala ko para sa mga bata un, wla lang un lang ung pakiramdam ko... nalaman ko lang talaga na school nga talaga un nung nakilala ko si criela at nilocate ko nga school nya... noon ngang una ko ung nakita wala naman talaga me interest dun parang it just came and passed by lang... who would have thought na sometime later that would be one of the most special place for me.. well kasi nga halos araw araw nan dun si criela... hayyy!!!! so un tommorow... we will be close again physically, kung nandun ka nga sa oras na dumaan me dun... di ko pa sure kung what time me dadaan dun pero malamang mga lunch time... i think this will be the closest so far that i will be with her... again unintentionally.. of course someday sana mas close pa... kasi original na purpose ko naman talaga is pumunta nga dun sa kilos para bumili ng bag para sa cousins kong taga germany kasi aalis na un tita ko this friday... un lang,.... i miss yah criela... sana ay ok ka lang lagi... ingats ka lagi....

So close no matter how far
couldn't be much more from the heart
forever trusting who we are
and nothing else matters

never opened myself this way
life is ours, we live it our way
all these words I don't just say
and nothing else matters

trust I seek and I find in you
every day for us something new
open mind for a different view
and nothing else matters

never cared for what they do
never cared for what they know
but I know

so close no matter how far
couldn't be much more from the heart
forever trusting who we are
and nothing else matters

never cared for what they do
never cared for what they know
but I know

never opened myself this way
life is ours, we live it our way
all these words I don't just say
and nothing else matters

trust I seek and I find in you
every day for us something new
open mind for a different view
and nothing else matters

never cared for what they say
never cared for games they play
never cared for what they do
never cared for what they know
and I know

so close no matter how far
couldn't be much more from the heart
forever trusting who we are
no nothing else matters

great criela

after all, God did ask Jesus to suffer for the greater good. ryt?

that is a great point that you got there... sometimes talaga the hardest part of making a decision is accepting that maybe, even just maybe, we will not get anything out of what we are doing, in this case, for others... but i admire your decision that you are willing to do the greater good... even if maybe, that "greater" part doesn't include a good part for you... pero eto lang noh... hindi ko alam syempre completely uli mga kumpletong istorya dyan sa sinasabi mo pero i just want to leave you with one question.. one question na sana ay mas makalinaw sa pag iisip mo...

Jesus suffered not for the "good" but for the right thing.... nagkataon lang nun na what is good was also the right thing kasi nga si Jesus is a God and siguradong tama ang desisyon nya... please as much as possible, alam ko di ko rin to nagagawa lagi pero baka ikaw kaya mo... just doing our best, right??? dont do things because they are good, do things because they are right... not all good things are right.. but surely all right things are good... now... mejo lumabo nga cguro kasi iisipin siguro natin... how will we know what is the right thing to do??? kasi parang good thing... people sees thing in different perspective.. pero eto yan... total naman nabanggit mo na ring example si Jesus... eto yan sabi ko nga Jesus surely did the right thing because He is a God... kaya un the best way to know what is the right thing is by praying... communicating with God... remember... God will surely show you what is the right thing if you ask sincerely... it might not be good and right for you.. or even for your mom... pero surely.. it is the right thing... and surely it is for the greater good... not just for people around you but also for you.. ingats ka sana lagi... God bless... kaya mo yan... you are a great girl.. i can see that God really did a masterpiece in you.. kaya yun... just be yourself and with God's way, see the great girl that is... Criela

never give up on the things that make you smile

if im not in love with you
what is this im going through, tonight
if this heart is lying, then
what should i believe in
why do i go crazy
every time i think about you baby
why else do i want you like i do
if i m not in love with you
if im not in love with you
what is this im going through, tonight
if this heart is lying, then
what should i believe in
why do i go crazy
every time i think about you baby
why else do i want you like i do
if im not in love with you
and if i dont need your touch
why do i miss you so much, tonight
if its just infatuation
why is my heart aching
to hold you forever
when a part of me thought id never
give again to someone i could lose
if im not in love with you
oh why in every fantasy
do i feel your arms embracing me
like lovers lost
in sweet desire
and why in dreams do i surrender
like a little baby
how do i explain this feeling
someone tell me
if im not in love with you
what is this im going through, tonight
if this heart is lying, then
what should i believe in
why do i go crazy
every time i think about you baby
why else do i want you like i do
if im not in love with you

kung hindi kita mahal... bakit nga ba kailangan ko pang masaktan pag nalalaman kong nasasaktan ka? grabe namang admiration toh... hayyy!!! sabi mo...
I wanna be somebody
I, I wanna be somebody
I wanna be somebody
I, I wanna be somebody who can face the things that I've been running from...
alam mo hindi ko ng siguro alam ng kumpleto kung ano ba talaga nagyayari sa buhay mo, alam ko na hindi ko talaga nararamdaman ng buong buo kung ano man ung sakit na nararamdaman mo... pero ito na lang sasabihin ko... ok lang na umiyak... siguro naman alam mo na rin un kasi kung hindi, hindi ka naman siguro iiyak, pero syempre pagkatapos natin umiyak.. hindi naman pwedeng iiyak na lang tayo lagi, eh syempre we must do our best din to face our personal nemesis... you dont need to want to be somebody who can face what youve been running from (could it be me? hindi naman siguro.. wag naman sana... ) , you jst need to turn around and stop running from whatever you are running away from, kasi if you willl stop running... then you will be that "somebody who can face the things that I've been running from... " tama nga sabi mo...
Let me feel, I don't care if I breakdown
Let me fall, even if I hit the ground
And if I...
Cry a little
Die a little
At least I know I lived, just a little...
I've become much too good at being invincible
I'm an expert at play it safe, and keep it cool
But I swear this isn't who I'm meant to be
I refuse to let my life roll all over me...

tama ka that is not just ho you are meant to be... i mean you are just 15... when i was your age,,, i was as innocent as a baby, maybe.. pero un nga sabi ko nga sayo lagi just be who you are... alam mo nakilala kita noon na matapang, kaya alam mo na kakakyanin mo yan.. hindi mo nga siguro kaya maging matapang lagi pero un just be who you really are and i believe na you will be the great girl that you expect yourself to be... siguro nga masyado din lang me nagpapanic pag nalalaman kong nasasktan ka... sabi mo nga noon nagugulat din friends mo sa mga sinasabi mo sa xanga mo pero eto lang no sana kung magkakaroon man ng milagrong ganito na maramdaman mo na sobrang lungkot ka... or basta if you need anything from me or you want to say anything good or bad to me... sana wag ka magdadalawang isip na gawin un... ingats ka sana lagi... tsaka un... alam mo na... stay colorful... kaya nga siguro naisip ko na minsan bakit bigla na lang pabago bago situation mo... one time ok na ok ka... then another time bigla naman sobrang para bang there will be no tommorow na.. hayyy crayola ka nga talaga...

tsaka un sana kapg talagang sobrang lungkot ka... lagi mo lang maalala ang pinakamalaking lesson na ibinahagi mo sa akin...
never give up on the things that make you smile

sorry for being too insensitive

eto pala pahabol lang.. alam ko nga hindi ko masasabi sayo lahat ng bagay dito at hindi ko malilinaw lahat dito kaya sana kausapi mo naman me... hindi na kailangan pang personal pero ok na rin un, at least matutupad na ung matagal ko na gusto na makita ka... pero ok lang kahit hindi basta ang pinaka importante ngayon... please... please please sana kausapin mo me para kung may problem man, maayos na agad... siguro naman if you just admire someone you wont beg to settle your problem with that one you admire...

eto pala kaya me nagpahabol ng ganito to tell you this...
sorry ha.. kung masyado man akong naging manhid na hindi naramdaman na nasasaktan na kita... kaya nga please tell me na lang kung ganun man... sorry sorry sorry sorry talaga... hhhayyyy!!! i feel like my heart and brain will pop out anytime because of too much pain... pasensya ka na talaga kaya please tell me tell me tell me na kung ano ang problema... siguro naman marunong din akong magsakripisyo para sa taong mahal ko... sorry talaga...

naalala ko dati kinantahan pa kita ng "insensitive", it turned out na para sa akin pala ung kanta na un... sorry talaga... sana kausapin mo naman ako

im sorry... please tell me where it hurts

hello... dito na uli me sa comlab ngayon.. mukha yatang uulan... pero wag naman sana, uuwi na rin me by 6 kasi hanggang 6 lang naman tong lab... and gagawin ko pa rin ung java exercise namin to be passed tom.. hayyy... bad bad me... nung last Tuesday pa binigay ung assignment na un and ngayong gabi ko lang gagawin... hayy and im also trying to figure out why my pc is not shutting down sometimes... pag naka admin account me... pag shut down ko sya or restart... titigil sya dun sa "windows is shutting down", magagalaw mo ung mouse cusrsor pero obviously wla ka rin namang magagawa.. nag bblink lang ung ilaw nung hard disk.. par maayos sya...kailangan mo pa manually press the restart button.. hay bakit ganun? help naman anyone... minsan minsan lang sya nangyayari, mga 1 out of 4 times... pero nakakainis na talaga...

hayyy... next topic.. hello... kumusta ka na? may gusto lang talaga me linawin sayo... alam mo na naman cguro kung sino ka noh... kahit naman cguro sinong makabasa nito alam kung sino kausap ko... kasi marami nga sinabi sakin ung "friend" na pinakausap "mo" daw sa kin nung Friday night.. 1 thing lang noh... kasi ang pinagtataka ko lang is ung sinabi nya na "natatakot" ka na daw sa ginagawa ko? (note: i may not be using the exact terms that was used during our conversation, im just telling it the way i remember it,,, so kung may mali please tell me lang agad) sabi nya nga kasi noong una daw eh ok lang daw ung ginagawa ko sayo pero nagyon daw eh ayaw mo na.. sabi nga nya tigilan na daw kita... ang tanong ko lang... anong titigilan ko eh matagal ko na nga tong ginagawa... at one thing more... sabi ko nga sa kanya.. kausap din lang kita early last week ung nasabi mo pa nga na punta kang uste tapos all of a sudden nung friday... bigla mo na lang me tinanong... ng ganito... ganyan.. alam mo na un... and pinakausap mo nga ako sa kanya na para bang napakalaki ng problema at magugunaw na ang mundo kinabukasan... naalala mo pa ba ung lagi ko sayo sinasabi noon na sana kung may nagagawa me na hindi mo gusto in any way... please tell me agad... kasi nga ayaw ko dumating ung point na nasasaktan na kita or anything like that.. pero sabi nga nung friend mo baka daw naiilang ka lang... i mean,,, ikaw? naiilang? nagulat me dun... alam ko pwede kang mailang pero sana naman huwag ganun kasi you are very free to exercise your right... sabi mo nga passive ka pero para sa akin please nga kung may sasabihin ka na may problem ka sa akin,,, please tell me lang kasi lalaki lang ng lalaki ung problem kung hindi... sinabi pa nga nya na nasasaktan na nga daw kita kaya please tigilan na kita... kaya please tell me lang asap what is wrong kasi nga matagal ko na to ginagawa at kung patitigilin nya ako, i just dont know where to stop... kasi nga para bang bigla na lang nagbago ihip ng hangin nung friday.. so please tell me naman asap... please.. ayaw ko na masaktan ka pa lalo kaya please tell me agad.. please i am begging you... nagmamakaawa ako sa iyo... ano pa ba kailangan ko sabihin? please... tell me if i am huritng you... sabi nga gusto mong kanta dati... tell me where it hurts

ok... naisip ko nga rin pala na baka naman masyado ka lang nagulat dun sa sinabi ko na " i love you", i mean... kaya tinanong mo me na bakit mahal kita... my stand will be the same... mahal talaga kita... for me, there is just no lie in that... sana nga maramdaman mo rin un... pero un nga siguro nasobrahan lang.. ayaw ko rin agad sabihin yan kasi sabi ko nga... i cannot prove it just yet... there is no other proof of my love for you... except for "it"self (my love itself).... and what i do... and what i do for you may not be that evident ngayon kasi un nga lang naman ung mga ginagawa ko sa site ko... sabi nga ng friend mo.. anyone can do that wthout loving, pero there is much more than that... at ang pinakamalaki dun ay ung pangarap ko.. and dreams are made to be realized... not in an instant but through a long run... and dreams are very unbelievable until it is fully realized...

and lastly.. sabi rin nung friend mo na parang lumalabas daw na pinipilit ko ung love ko sa iyo... well unang una... hindi me nanliligaw... not just yet... sana naman alam mo na kung bakit... kasi nga gusto ko na kung darating man un time na un... pag sinabi ko sayong i love you.. there will be no doubt in your heart... naalala mo un sana dumating din ung time na masasabi ko sayo na ikaw ang dahilan kung bakit ko ginusto na makarating dito... un un... kaso nga nasabi ko na agad i love you ngayon... para sa akin naman... the i love yo statement is just a supplement of what you do because of that love kaya kung un nga after almost 1 year of doing this and that for you... at hindi mo narealize at naramdaman na mahal kita, wala nga sigurong magagawang mas solid na proof ng love ko ung mga sinasabi kong i love you... and un pa nga pala kung lumalabas man na pinipilit ko ang mga ginagawa ko for you... sana nga sabihin mo lang ha... basta eto last na lang... ang dami ko pang gusto sabihin sayo pero siguro no need na muna until magsalita kung ano ba talaga nangyari... why the sudden change??? sabi nga siguro nung friend mo napuno ka na... pero please tell me personally... please,,,, i dont want any explanations... kailangan ko lang ng clarification... sana magsalita ka naman... at sana nga mabasa mo to... sabi ko nga sa friend mo, mula nung friday... u wont see any of me unless u want to so sana gustuhin mo rin na mabasa to... o at least madaanan mo lang... please... please,,, ingats ka sana lagi... and sana wag mo kakalimutan... i love you... kahit siguro hindi ka maniwala... sana lang wag mo kakalimutan... para someday... i can completely prove that it is true, and it is for you...

can anyone else see you as beautiful as i do?

this song has been bugging my head kanina pa mula nung visit ko sa site mo... hhhayyyy!!! sana nga totoo na lang ung sinabi mo na admiration lang tong nararamdaman ko sayo... sana nga hindi ko na kailangan pang pangarapin na gumanda buhay ko para someday kung sakali mang magkikita tayo ay masasabi ko rin sayo na "ikaw ang dahilan kung bakit ginusto ko na mapunta dito ngayon", sana nga hindi ko na kailangan pang masaktan kapag nararamdaman kong para bang napaka lapit mo pero hindi kita maabot... sana nga maramdaman mo rin na mahal kita hindi pa nga siguro ngayon... pero sana someday malaman mo rin at mapatunayan mo rin sa sarili mo na totoo un... eto nga pala ung kanta... para sa iyo... this is quite an old song.. hindi ko alam kung bakit bigla to pumasok sa isip ko.. nung makita ko kasi ung mga pics mo... naisip ko na you really are too beautiful for the human eye... sana wag mo isipin na gusto lang kita dahil sa maganda ka... aaminin ko... part siguro un pero that is not "it"... sana ay ok ka lang lagi... ingats ka lagi

Can I touch you?
I can't believe that you are real
How did I ever find you?
You are the dream that saved my life
You are the reason I survived
Baby...

I never thought that I could love
someone as much as I love you
I know it's crazy but it's true
I never thought that I could need
someone as much as I need you
I Love You...

Can I hold you?
Girl your smile lights up the sky
You are too beautiful for the human eye
You are the dream that never dies
you are the fire that burns inside
Baby...

I never thought that I could love
someone as much as I love you
I know it's crazy but it's true
I never thought that I could need
someone as much as I need you
I Love You...

You are the sunshine in the sky
You are the sparkle in my eyes

I never thought that I could love
someone as much as I need you
I know it's crazy but it's true
I know it's true
I never thought that I could need
someone as much as I need you
I LOVE YOU.

again... criela here.. criela there... criela everywhere

i think of you... always...

KLSP sa iyo

its now Sunday... Aug 14... 12:25 am... still sitting here in front of my pc... i just gone online at ym trying to see if criela's online too, i've gone to her xanga, multiply, friendster, myspace, blogspot.. to see if she's got new updates... well before i sleep, i would just like to say something here,... miss na miss lang talaga kita... sana nga mas malapit ka na lang sakin o ako sayo... pero ganito nga talaga... wala na akong ibang magagawa pa kundi hintayin na lang ang araw na magkikita tayo... kasi alam ko na if i would go beyond that... it would be quite a stupid move... sabi mo nga di ba? patience is a virtue, but waiting is not... but i say that my patience is now telling me to wait... at least for now... and be silent... pasensya ka na talaga kung masyado me KSP... kasi di ba ganun nga siguro kung mahal mo ang isang tao... gagawin mo ang lahat para mapansin ka nya... pasensya ka na talaga... ingat ka lang lagi ha... good night... ang ganda ganda mo talaga,,.. as im typing this... im also browsing at your pics (well not really browsing pero parang ganun na rin), kasi mga pics mo ung visualization sa wmp ko eh... nakikinig lang me ngayon... sana talaga magkita rin tayo someday... good night... good night... hay... di ko na alam pa sasabihin ko... cge basta ingats ka na lang lagi and kung may kailanganin ka man.. please tell me lang... good night and good morning

please stay...

hello... kanina as i was going down the stairs of LRT1 D. Jose station (uwi lang me from school.. nag LRT na me kasi gutom na me and gusto ko na rin makarating agad dito sa house) ... i have my music on... and the song i was listening to was stay... then this lines popped-up

So if you'd still go, i'll understand
Would you give me something just to hold on to?
And if you'll stay, ill hold your hand
Cause im truly, madly, crazily in love with you

i know the song na for so long and kanina ko lang talaga narinig sya ng ganun kalinaw to realize something... that was really the thing that i kept on telling Criela this past few days.. sa previous post ko lang di ba sabi ko nga miss na miss kita at alam ko naman na talagang di pa tayo nagkikita... at kung saka sakali man na di pa tayo magkikita for a long time or di na tayo magkikita kailanman, which i hope will not happen, sabi ko nga ok na rin basta... wag ka lang lalayo sobra... nasabi ko rin na ok lang kahit nandyan ka at nandito lang ako, kahit malayo ako sayo... basta nakikita lang kita... yun... at yun ngang song na stay really said it best particularly ung naka quote dyan sa taas... "would you u give me something just to hold on to?" alam mo yun... nararamdaman mo ba yun minsan sa taong mahal mo pero hindi mo makasama... yun bang kahit konti na lang contact nyo ok lang... basta meron... kahit konti, kumbaga ang gusto mong realtionship with the one you really love is "the best that it can get", kaya nga di ba kahit minsan wala kayong ginagawa, basta nandyan lang sya ok na... i mean that may not be the best that life can offer pero sabi ko nga noon... pag nakita mo na ang taong mahal mo... you will stop looking for the best... because you are already with the best.... kaya nga ngayon... alam ko na we dont really have a relationship naman, kasi nga di pa tayo nagkikita... pero alam ko na someday magkakaron din... kaya nga nagyon pa lang.. im always doing my best to prepare for that... it may never come... or it may... we never "really" know... pero sasabihin ko nga uli...

kapag nakita mo na ang taong mahal mo... you will stop looking for the best... because you are already with the best... you will just do your best to make the best out of what you have... it may get better... or worse... but in the end, what matters is not what you have... but what you did to get you where you are...

sana nga malapit na lang ako sayo nagyon.. sana nga isa na lang ako sa mga ka school mate mo.. or ka cue mo.. or perhaps close friend mo... pero nandito nga lang ako at nandyan ka... sana lang wag ka lalayo masyado.. mahal na mahal kita.. i really dont know what more to say... in fact i evn dont know if you will be able to read this... kaya nga di na me nag popost ng mga ganitp sa multiply at friendster kasi ayaw ko na rin masyadiong maging papansin pa... kaya kung mababasa mo to... nasa xanga lang to or blogspot... at kung nababasa mo man to... hindi ko rin alam kung naiintindihan mo to lahat... pero the days will come when these things will be opened right in front of us... kaya un.. until then.. ill just be here kaya sana dyan ka rin lang... ok? please wag ka lalayo sobra...

para akong isang batang umaasa na makuha at mahawakan ung laruan nya... nasa mataas na lugar iyon kaya hindi nya maabot... pero nakikita nya naman... hindi pa nya abot un at araw araw pinipilit nyang abutin yoon... naghihintay sya lagi at tinitingnan nya kung malaki na ba sya para maabot ang laruan nya... masakit para sa kanya ang pagtingin sa laruan na yun araw araw dahil para bang napakalapit lang noon pero hindi nya maabot... masakit kapag iniisip nya na baka kunin na iyon ng magulang nya at ilayo sa kanya at hindi nya nayun makita muli... napaka uncertain pero umaasa pa rin sya lagi kasi gusto nya yun... at sa ngayon ang tanging magagawa lang nya ay umasa na sana pag kaya na nyang abutin ang laruan nyang yun.. nandoon pa rin yung laruan na yun....

ingat ka lagi ha... good night and good morning

midnight joel for crayola

good morning... it snow 12:42 in the morning... or shall i say midnight... s\and im still awake... great thing that our java exam scheduled tomorow was postponed for Tuesday... hahaha... Monday ay hindi... Wednesday pala... its all about... abstract classes, inheritance, poloymorphism, interfaces... hahaha!!! hindi mo ba maintindihan... kaya nga... ganyan yan kahirap kahit ako hirap pa rin intindihin yan eh... anyways... thank you Miss Tanya... my photobucket pics reached 900 tonight... or shall i say today... and it doesn't really looks like "my" photobucket kasi it contains... (out of 900 total pics)... 845 pics of criela... or at least pics or GIF's from her xanga anf friendster... kanina lang i visited her xanga... multiply... ano pa ba... blogspot nga pala... cge...ok na... friendster... i really cant help it but be so... kinda hurt or something like that pag nakikita ko sya... alam mo... para ba kasing napakalapit mo sa akin pero alam naman nating hindi ganun... para ba kasing... i want to hold you in my arms but i simply cant... para bang i can actually pero their are too many factors kaya hindi nangyayari yun... sana nga mangyari in the future... it really makes me feel kinda sick at first... napaka sakit talaga... para bang iniipit ung heart mo na para bang alam mo na pwede mo namang magawa o maabot ung isang bagay pero hindi talaga mangyari eh... pero sabi ko nga Criela... basta wag ka lang lalayo sobra... basta nakikita lang kita, kahit hindi pa kita maabot... ok lang... basta just please... stay there... hhhmmmm.... i miss you... i love you... i really dont know if those are the right terms kasi ive discovered lately that... its really just a matter of terminology... kaya minsan di magakaintindihan kasi un ibang tao iba iba ang interpretation sa ibang terms kaya yun as i say i love you and i miss you... im just saying that because i know that is how i feel and i know that, that is what i want to say... good night... good night.... hayy Criela... you are really one great girl... ikaw nga ang crayola ng buhay ko...

Dont care how long, but im willing to wait
Cause im truly, madly, crazily in love with you...

Tahan na’t ako’y narito na
Ika’y mamahalin
Pipilitin ika’y pasiyahin
Di papayag na ika’y saktan
Ng kahit sino man
Ako’y asahan mo hirang


bakit nga ba gising pa ako hanggang ngayon... dati lagi me umaasa na sana natutulog ka na ng maaga at hindi ka nagpupuyat... ngayon naman lagi me nag oonline pag 12 midnight hoping that you're there... pero ok lang... at least papahinga ka ngayon... kasi maaga pa pasok mo... ako 3pm pa pasok ko tom eh... cge good night Criela...

listening to "asa" by south border



HAPPY 12TH BIRTHDAY PALA SA YOUNGER BROTHER KO NA SI JAYSON... halos 10 years pagitan namin... hehehe... yan ang nagagawa ng family planning.. hhhayyy!!!

cry-iela

**originally posted at http://www.xanga.com/friendsterjoel

still sitting here in the school's comlab, finished installing ms office 2003, kakatuwa, nakahiwalay pa ung frontpage... sabi nung nagpahiram ng cd, nasira daw ung office nya nung ininstall ung frontpage pero la naman naging problem dito sa school so try ko na lang uli sa bahay later... i really feel so weak nowadays... di ko na talaga gusto iexpoud pa tong nararamdaman ko pero sige, total dito lang naman sa site ko, dito ko na lang to isusulat sa xanga or kung ilalagay ko rin naman to sa iba, sa blogspot (blogger pala) na lang siguro (eto na nga), kasi i really dont want to be bugging criela again and again kasi un nga kahit tahimik lang sya... eh un... la lang... alam mo na un... here it goes

i really dont know if i should be feeling this but, i really miss criela.. is that the right term? miss? well di ko alam kung ano basta gusto ko na talaga sya makita, right now i really dont know what to do kung magkikita man kami kaya nga in the first place ayaw ko talaga makipagkita pa... sabi nga ni criela... again,... my heart is fighting with my mind... well parang ganun... basta ang gusto ko lang sabihin ay mahal na mahal kita... alam ko na maraming arguments tungkol dyan pero ayaw ko na muna entertain yan ngayon, i just want to say what i feel, at least nga dito na lang sa own site ko para at least wala na akong nagagambala pa... alam ko na darating din ang tamang araw para malaman ko what God has planned for me regarding criela kaya nga for now... patience is really a main key,... shhh... slow down lang.. you can do it... patience and timing are the most essential tools to success, hay!! criela criela criela,,, ano nga ba??? hay!!! sige lang... kayang kaya yan... just..please stay close where i can see you... kahit siguro di kita maabot (at least for now), ok lang,, basta alam ko nandyan ka... ingats ka lagi...

this is my first blogspot post... this site was made earlier than i expected.. i was planning to make a real blog site after i finish my web programming 1... but this is here so... lets just see what i can to... see yah...